Five Reasons I Love You

Prompt: I won't make it alone / I need something to hold // Kiss me on my shoulder / Tell me it's not over / I promised to always come home to you / Remind me that I'm older / To be brave, smart, sweet and bolder / And don't give up on what we're trying to do // Don't count the miles, / Count the I love you's ~ "Miles" by Christina Perri by pygmymuse. Remembering Stories

So I must write more fiction for this, but I really really love this pairing and poem anyway.


Liana Mir

Series Listing

16 — 02. Summer

When the Clock Strikes Midnight

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Wake and Thrive

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Its Own Absolution

16 — 03. Late Autumn

After the Grief

16 — 03. Late Autumn

Battery Acid

17 — 02. Summer

Accounting for Redemption

17 — 02. Summer

Counting Heartbeats

18 — 01. Spring

Song Between the Waking and the Dreaming

20 — 04. Winter

Echoes of Anchor Lost

21 — 01. Spring

Don’t Remind Me That It’s Over

21 — 02. Summer

Welcome

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Name Me Another (or Glass Angel, Redux)

22 — 01. Spring

Glass Angel

22 — 01. Spring

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22 — 02. Summer

Without a Reason

22 — 03. Autumn

Learning Legato

23 — 02. Summer

Acceptable Cost

23 — 02. Summer

History Lesson on the Night Train

23 — 03. Autumn

Abyss Looking Back

23 — 03. Autumn

Collateral Damage

23 — 03. Autumn

Five Reasons I Love You

23 — 03. Autumn

Little Things

23 — 03. Autumn

Owning Beauty

23 — 04. Winter

Dream the Dance

23 — 04. Winter

Snow Day

24 — 02. Summer

As the River Breathes

AU 21 — 04. Winter

Normal written in coffee grounds

Five Reasons I Love You

There are five reasons I love you / (And none of them are the ones you want to hear)

23 — 03. Autumn
Kingdoms and Thorn Science Fiction Romance
Poem

There are five reasons I love you
(And none of them are the ones you want to hear):

I love the way you drink your cup of coffee,
Grimacing because you do not like the taste
But drinking it anyway because you need caffeine,

And pierce me with your keenness in grey eyes
Because I drink it black and straight, but
To you the world only spins with the jolt awake—

The ringing phone, the morning buzz your cup
Contains, inscrutability (your instincts never less than cop);
Your neurons do not snap awake at stray

Thoughts in unfamiliar wavelike patterns dreaming
And undreaming, the foreign tsunami slapping me.

You pierce me with your keenness in grey eyes,
And I want to see the greyness through them
(You are inscrutable in some way I cannot fathom—

Machine gun thoughts rapping out a stark staccato tap
Of clinking gears until your whirring mind kicks in
After the java high, and I watch you turn away,

Deliberately), for your city is paved in grime and justice,
Something I cannot separate from flesh and blood and thought.

I love the way your smile is always a surprise
As though it must get the jump on you to come,
But you tease me lightly any time you have the chance.

You pierce me with your gaze, storming as you realize
I am holding in (sometimes) a smile because
You are fathomless, because you are storms and secrets;

Secrets don’t have to exist for me:
You are a stormy ocean I could read, but I promised
Promised myself ten, fifteen, twenty years ago,

I would ask before sea diving into a friend.
You remain a pathless sea: I love your storms.

I love the way you say my name—Catherine Elena April,
Catherine Elena April—how you use it all
(To you I am unique from all the people

I have been, become, pretended to be
With everyone else around me),
As if by the way you say my name—Catherine

Elena April—caressing in Latinate tones,
You will spin with me in the dance
That keeps me beyond your reach like silk;

As if by the way you concrete
My abstraction into definite points—
Catherine—discrete, that you will capture me.

I like how you get around to the words,
“I love you,” because I need to hear them, but

I love the way it takes you so long to get there:
Your piercing gaze that follows me about;
Thumbs digging into my hips to arrest my motion;

Three syllables of my name, softly admonishing,
As though I would otherwise somehow forget
That you are the only one who ever calls me that;

You let me be a woman, hurting, but do not reach
To hold me until I tell you, “Rede. I need you,” then
Do not speak if I cry until my tears are gone;

And in our own words that only make sense
To me and you: “I love to laugh with you.”

And this is my fault; I am to blame,
For I have been burned and told you not to put in words
That maybe it was more than laughing with you I loved.

I love the way you came to me with two names,
Already yours, so I can separate out the Marc
Who treats me with tenderness when you can

From the Rede who pierces with instincts
Never less than the cop that you have always been
And stares unflinching, unintimidated into my angry

Sea of thoughts and words and flesh and blood,
Who has never broken what trust I have given,
Who does not like the taste of coffee but drinks it

Anwyay because you need the caffeine:
In the same way you do everything else
That needs to be done—unflinching.

I will say it in another way, another tongue
That you and I have always understood:

Rede, with your keenness in grey eyes,
Whose storms defy my mind in staccato bursts
Of machine guns clinking like gears and whirring

With the greyness of a grime and justice-painted world—
Marc, who treats me with tenderness, holding not
And not saying, “I love you,” until it needs to be said,

Whose smile takes me by surprise and catches me
Smiling because we are both inscrutable and that
Is what makes us work, who calls me by names

No other calls me—Catherine Elena April—Marc
Rede, I love to laugh with you.

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